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Dear Caring Friend

Being single is not synonymous with loneliness. I am not lonely and I am not looking for a man to fill any voids in my spirit or my body. As my friend, you should know that I have standards and that I am not falling at the feet of every man who says I’m pretty or bounces his hand against my curls. Just because I flirt does not mean I want to have sex and just because I have sex does not mean I am desperate for a relationship. Take a step back. please stop setting me up with guys. Stop looking for sparks. You should want the things for me that I want for me. If you don’t know what I want for me then you aren’t trying hard enough to know me. Please stop suggesting things and people to me. I need your standards to be higher than mine. I need you to say my friend deserves the most amazing kiss or the most passionate sex or the most romantic life and so anyone who so much as puckers his lips in my direction is probably wasting his time. I only ask this because I do it for you. You deserve so much better than you think you do. you deserve so much more than you have. I am only wary of your partner because I care about your heart not because I’m jealous or pining for one myself. You being in a relationship is not a sad reminder that I’m not in one. I am learning who I am. I am learning what I want. I need you to learn with me. It’s awkward when you push me to talk to guys you think are interested and then leave me to have to gently let them down. Some guys don’t know how to receive rejection without feeling insulted and you pushing me to talk to someone with the hopes that we might fall in love and live happily ever after not only puts my heart in danger, it puts my life in danger too. I need you to be my protector. My knight. My brave. Sometimes I can’t make the right decisions and I need you to step in. Please don’t say to me that your wanting to find me a boyfriend is only because you’re worried or you care or you don’t want me to be lonely. I am the strongest I’ve been in years. I am happy and independent and doing things without having to ask for permission. I am flirting with life and you’re smothering me with your misplaced concern.

Please. I love you.

Megan C Lucas


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When I was little,
my mother taught me that beautiful and ugly were to be placed in the same box.
The box labelled “inside”.
While someone can be attractive,
it does not make them beautiful
nor does it make them incapable of being ugly.
Also, while someone might be unattractive,
it does not make them ugly
nor does it make them incapable of being beautiful.
Ugly and beautiful are qualities you must look out for.
If they are the first thing you see,
there is a great chance you may be wrong.
A person’s true nature takes time to unravel.

_ Megan C Lucas

Book Club 1 : Thirteen reasons Why


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This weekend I hosted our very first book club. We read Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. We drank wine. We ate carbs. We spent three hours discussing the book and relating it to our lives. It was beautiful.

As a reminder: Thirteen Reasons Why is about a teenage boy who receives a package with thirteen cassette tapes in them detailing why one of his classmates committed suicide. They are essentially blame tapes and each person involved must hear the entire build up to her death and then live with one another with the knowledge that certain other classmates may have committed crimes they might not have the guts to report. It is an interesting read that, time allowed, shouldn’t take more than five hours to complete. 

You should read this book because it will make you feel. It might make you look at your life and your actions, both past and present, and make you realize how some things lead to other things and how sometimes they’re not good.

We pulled up a discussion sheet off the internet and went through them in detail.
We discussed suicide and friendship and how heartbreak and betrayal and different and we pointed out weaknesses and strengths in one another that led to other realizations.
I am incredibly proud of us.